Sunday, April 14, 2024

All Things New

I woke today to news of Iranian attacks on Israel, talk of World War III, mention of potential nuclear attacks.

I've been thinking this Easter season about resurrection, hope, and the promise that God will make all things new. How do we hold that promise when we see mile after mile of bombed out cities in Gaza, escalating gang violence in Haiti, millions displaced and facing starvation in Sudan, continuing war in Ukraine?

On January 1, 2024, the International Crisis Group posted Ten Conflicts to Watch in 2024. The post began with a question:
Can we stop things falling apart? 2024 begins with wars burning in Gaza, Sudan and Ukraine and peacemaking in crisis. Worldwide, diplomatic efforts to end fighting are failing. More leaders are pursuing their ends militarily. More believe they can get away with it.  

It's easy to leap toward thoughts of apocalypse, but we know that violence, brutality and the quest for power are not new. In March 31, 2013, I wrote a post called Where is Newness Needed?

I asked: 

What are the things that trap us, trick us, hold us captive, like tightly wound grave clothes, or stones against a tomb?

What brokenness in us, in our faith, in our world, holds us in fear, whispers “this is all there is,” insists “the future you dream of is not possible”.

Where is newness needed?
My questions at the time were more personal than political. I felt I'd come to some dead ends. I also was spending time with friends stuck in dark places, not sure how to help, not sure my investment of time would ever make a difference. 

I was not really thinking of political realities, not really aware of deepening divisions. Yet, re-reading what I wrote, it feels more relevant to today than the quieter days of 2013:
The world Jesus was born to was brutal, angry, merciless.

Watching the new Bible series on the history channel, I flinch at the level of violence depicted. Yet Jesus lived in a violent time, under the rule of violent, arbitrary leaders addicted to power, willing to execute sons, brothers, wives, innocent children, to maintain control and suppress any hint of opposition.  

In a fearful, self-protective world, the church had become as fearful and self-protective. Divided, distrustful, angry: the leaders watched for any hint of opposition, aligned themselves with political power, did what was needed to maintain their own illusion of control.

Who could live in a world like that without being fearful, angry, suspicious? Every move was watched, every word was judged, every resource carefully guarded.

Jesus promised newness. In everything he said and did, he called into question the logic of his day. The poor will be rich. The weak will be strong. Those who risk their safety in acts of love will be the ones held safe in God’s eternal care.

His words made power angry. His acts defied the economics of the day. 

His promise of new hope, new freedom, a new spirit, a new way, led to the same punishment that awaited anyone who dared to challenge the order of the day: death. 

A painful, public death. A sign to all watching that might is absolute, and newness, the kind Jesus promised, is a fool’s dream, nothing more.

So did the resurrection happen?

Did the same old story take an unexpected turn?

Did the newness Jesus promised, new life, new hope, new freedom, rise with him and walk free from the tomb?

Or did power, death, the established order, the accepted logic, the self-protective anger, win the day, and prove, yet again, that hope is food for fools?
I ended that 2013 post with part of a poem about resurrection by Walter Brueggemann (Not the Kingdom of Death). The final line was the one that caught me: "newness beyond our achieving."

More than ever, we need that newness. A newness beyond our achieving.

Beyond our tired politics, our own ideas, our self-protective efforts. 

My goal is to think that through in future post. What does resurrection mean? Where is newness needed? How do we seek what we can't achieve?

What would it mean to see God make all things new? 


Friday, March 29, 2024

Give Us Barabbas

I start most days with a cup of coffee and the daily reading from Scripture Union's Encounter with God.  The text for yesterday, March 28, was Luke 23:13-25. 

Pontius Pilate, governor of the province of Judea,  says he doesn't think Jesus has done anything wrong and should be released. The crowd shouts that they want Barabbas released instead. It's a passage I've heard read at least once a year since I was able to read. The crowd wins. Barabbas is released. Jesus is taken to Golgotha.

The notes that accompany the daily reading are written by pastors and teachers around the globe. My husband, Whitney, is a regular writer, and met last week on Zoom with others from that team. Few of them are Americans. Most bring perspectives to the scripture that catch me off guard, or show unfamiliar angles to long-familiar texts. The notes on Luke 23 were written by Kar Yong Lim, an Anglican priest and teacher in Malaysia, far from the turmoil of the American Christian church.  

For years now I've been grieving the allegiance many US Christians have given to former President Donald Trump. I wrote of my concern before the 2016 election, and again several month later. Many in my extended family voted for Trump, in 2016 and in 2020. Some are still furious that I did not. I have friends who have left church completely because they refuse to agree with former pro-Trump friends, and others convinced all Christians are white nationalists intent on civil war.  I'm not angry, just sad, and mystified that people who have read the same texts as me somehow see in them rationale to support a man like Donald Trump. 

In part I stopped blogging in 2021 because it felt like anything I said would make someone angry. There's too much anger in this world. I'd do anything to change that. If this post is making you angry, please stop reading. That's not my goal. 

Here's the part of yesterday's note that set me thinking: 

It is strange that the religious leaders and the crowd preferred to have Barabbas released instead of Jesus. Barabbas, also known as Jesus Barabbas, was a notorious prisoner who had taken part in insurrections and had committed murder (v. 19).2 He believed that God saved through violence and war, and he was prepared to fight and die for that belief. In this respect, the Roman authorities found him to be dangerous and imprisoned him. However, Jesus believed that God saves through self-sacrificing love and that he himself was the embodiment of that love. Because of this, the Jewish religious authorities found him dangerous and wanted to have him killed. In contrasting these two characters of Barabbas and Jesus, we could reflect on how we respond to the circumstances surrounding us today. In a world of heightened terrorist attacks, rising religious intolerance, and increasing repression of religious freedom, how could followers of Christ become agents of transformation?

I had never quite seen that the people choosing Barabbas believed he was the best route toward the kingdom God promised. No matter that he was violent. The violence was an essential part of the package. Barabbas was the way to push back on Rome, on the invading kingdoms of this world. The intent was good, a political manifestation of a narrow reading of earlier scriptures. 

Seeing that, I can see how that choice translates to today. People desperate to DO something have put their trust in the latest Barabbas. No matter that he is the exact opposite of the Christ they claim to follow. 

Yesterday's note ended:

Sometimes we hear the clamor, ‘Give us Barabbas,’ denoting a preference for a revolutionary option of political powers, military strength, and economic sanctions. The ethic that Jesus teaches is to love our enemies, pray for our persecutors, turn the other cheek, and to go the extra mile.

Whatever the earthly power we fear, the answer isn't hate, anger, or violence. Jesus told us that in every way he could, then showed it in his life and death. The answer to culture wars, immigration wars, whatever wars my loved ones fear, is not a blustering strongman, but the self-sacrificial love Jesus embodied on the cross. 

I meant to share the song below on Palm Sunday. Listening again, I think it makes more sense as a Good Friday mediation. It ends abruptly, in that dark, quiet space between "It is done" and Sunday morning, a good place for reflection, repentance and prayer. 




Sunday, March 17, 2024

Lenten Pause

In January I was asked to write an article about Lent for our church's quarterly magazine. I was happy to put into words my own plans for a season of quiet. I was hoping for time to reflect and pray. I'd been thinking about how much confidence we often put in our own narrow perspectives. I'd been lamenting the ways we so often jump to conclusions about the people we meet, the ideas we hear. My goal for the new year was to spend more time in review. Lent seemed like the ideal time.
But my Lent turned out much busier than I planned. My hope of a blog post every Sunday was buried under unreturned emails and unexpected challenges. I had my own idea of what a Lenten pause might look like. Instead, it felt more like spinning my wheels, or struggling to catch my breath. It occurs to me, as I write this, that I was planning Lent around myself. So I pause now to repent. Below is what I wrote.
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We move fast, speak quickly, scroll past anything that doesn’t instantly grab our attention. We answer without fully hearing the question. We argue without acknowledging any value in alternate points of view. We want what we want as quickly as possible and object when lines are long or wait times infringe on our overly-full schedules. The world is a fast-paced drama with us always at the center. 

Lent invites us to hit the pause button. 

To stop and listen. 

To set down our agendas, our expectations, and simply wait. 

Lent invites us to be still, and remember: we are not God. 

Lent begins on Ash Wednesday and ends on Easter Sunday. It’s 40 days if Sundays aren't counted. Sundays are little Easters, feast days, even in the midst of fasting. So Lent invites us to 40 days of fasting, prayer, and reflection, punctuated by the little Easters and ending with the greatest celebration of the Christian calendar, the day of resurrection.

40 is a number found often in scripture. The 40 days and 40 nights of Genesis 7:12). Moses' 40 years in the desert tending flocks (Acts 7:30). The 40 days and 40 nights Moses spent on the mountain waiting for God to speak (Exodus 24:18). The 40 years of wandering in the wilderness.

Lent nods at all of those, as well as others. If you want more, head to BibleGateway.com and search for “forty”. But the primary purpose of Lent is to remember Jesus’ own 40 days of preparation before the start of his public ministry. That time is described in Matthew 4. After fasting 40 days and forty nights, he was tempted in the wilderness.

Jesus had no doubt been preparing all of his life for the work he came to do. He told his mother as much when he was just a boy, lingering in the temple in Jerusalem when his family headed home without him. Yet, immediately after his baptism by his cousin John the Baptist,  he spent the next 40 days alone. No phone. No crowd. No agenda other than prayer. 

The liturgical calendar consistently invites us to live in a strange uncharted space, oriented toward events of the past, promises of the future, and a present that looks toward past and future but also outward, toward the work of God in the world, and inward, toward the work of God in the deepest, least explored parts of our own hearts.

In the Biblical wilderness experience, there are repeated strands of deprivation, testing, uncertainty, humility. And the one overarching question: will you set down your own plans, your own ideas, your own perceptions, and trust yourself to God?

Check Jesus’ answers in the face of temptation. Invited to demonstrate his own power, he refuses: 
  • It is written: 'Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.’
  • It is also written: ‘Do not put the Lord your God to the test.
  • It is written: ‘Worship the Lord your God, and serve him only.’
It’s curious. In many ways, in all the important ways, Jesus IS the center of the story of scripture, what TS Eliot called “the still point in the turning world.”  Yet when tempted to make that visible, he chose not to. He chose to fast, to pray, to wait, and then to set God the Father, and his word, in the center of the story. 

We fast during Lent to remind us: we do not live on bread alone, but on the word of God. Bread is a placeholder for whatever it is we rely on more than God, whatever it is we turn to for comfort, pleasure, that dopamine feeling that things are okay. How can we step back from that? How can we limit or eliminate it? How can we ask God to lessen its grip so we can find space to listen better?

We pray during Lent to rearrange our priorities. Our prayers are too often little tests for God. Can you heal me? Can you help me? Can you fix this mess I’m in? Those prayers are all valid, all needed, but Lent invites us to see ourselves on God’s eternal timeline instead of caught in the troubles of today. Where have we been so intent on our own solutions we’ve forgotten to ask for God’s? Where have we been so focused on our own problems we’ve forgotten to focus on God instead, and the love we’re called to share with others who grieve and doubt and suffer?'

We wait during Lent. We wait remembering all the times God moved and acted in the lives of his people throughout the sweep of scripture. We wait remembering God’s faithfulness across the many centuries since. We wait remembering all God has done in our own lives, and the lives of those we love. And we wait, remembering that Jesus died, rose again, and will return one day to dry our tears and establish a never-ending kingdom of grace and justice and joy. 

There’s a growing body of research exploring the value of uncertainty, wait times, and pauses. If we think we know exactly what comes next, we fall into something called cognitive entrenchment. We think we know the ending. We believe we control the outcome. We see exactly what we expect to see and discount what doesn’t fit the map already present in our minds. 

When we think we already know what’s next, we miss the new, the unexpected.
Which may mean we also miss seeing God at work. We’re already so sure what God should be doing, we miss what’s unfolding right before our eyes.

The Pharisees knew their scriptures cold. They had studied, memorized, debated, analyzed. For most of them, Jesus simply didn’t fit. Their messiah would be a military leader, a warrior king full of strength and zeal, ready to judge sinners, conquer enemies, and reward the pious leaders.

Instead, Jesus came to bring good news to the poor, to heal the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to captives and freedom to prisoners. Some who had been waiting for the Messiah saw and rejoiced. Some who had been waiting missed him entirely, so angry at his failure to meet their expectations that they plotted together to kill him. 

Lent reminds us: we are not God. And we are not the ones who set the course, solve the riddles, hold the answers. We are people on a journey, waiting for direction. There is joy in taking time to listen well. There is danger in expecting we know what’s next and hurrying forward too quickly.
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Easter is now just two weeks away. I'm still finding it hard to slow down, pause, listen, wait. But even so, I hold the good news closely. I am not God. I don't know what's next. I also don't know when the slow times will be. I know they'll come, but maybe when I least expect it. I rest when I can, run when I must, practice prayer along the way. I'm not the one writing this story. I'm invited to be part of it, to turn the next page and see where it leads. For that I'm thankful.
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The paintings on this page were commissioned as stations of the cross by our church, the Church of Good Samaritan, and painted by my daughter, Anna Kocher. They are on display at our church every Lent. This year they've also been the focus of a weekly evening of prayer, reflection, soup and bread, and were used as cover and back of a Lenten devotional, Journey through Lent 2024. I'm thankful for a church that does it's best to welcome and nurture a wide variety of gifts. 

Sunday, February 11, 2024

Gerry's Ashes

Some days I marvel at the intersection of threads in my life. Marvel, lament, give thanks and wonder. 

Today is very much one of those days. 

First, it's the Sunday before Ash Wednesday, so I was reviewing past blog posts on Ash Wednesday and Lent and came across one from 2017: Start with Repentance. I've just been writing a report that has me digging through records from that year, so it was interesting to reflect back on that time and what I was thinking.

I had helped start an organization called Fair Districts PA the January before, and by February 2017 I was drawn deep into work I had not imagined. I was speaking to packed auditoriums, preparing for interviews, talking with legislators and struggling to build a cohesive structure for hundreds of brand-new volunteers. I didn't realize until just this week: our fledgling speakers bureau presented information at over 400 events in 2017 to over 18,000 people. I had no idea we grew that fast. I have no idea how I survived it.

Second, today is the 212th anniversary of Elbridge Gerry's signing of the distorted district map that was yielded the word "Gerrymandering." (The full Smithsonian backstory on that is available here.) A decade ago I had never even heard the word - or if I had, it hadn't registered. Now, I've explained gerrymandering and the harm it does in churches, classrooms, restaurants, Rotaries, libraries, living rooms and more, from Philadelphia to Scranton to Erie to Pittsburgh and dozens of towns and cities in between. Distorted districts, drawn to benefit one party, or to keep incumbents in power, create a distortion of representation and yield distorted policies, bent to benefit some at the great expense of others. 

Third, today, for the first time since I left youth ministry fourteen years ago, I found myself talking with young teens in a confirmation class at our church. The new youth minister, Jessica Campbell, was in my first small group when I started youth ministry in 1999. Now she's back from years in youth ministry in the mid-west,  leading the Good Samaritan youth ministry and teaching the youth confirmation class. I was an invited guest and loved every minute. 

The curriculum she's using has some fragments of a curriculum I created twenty years ago, with some wonderful changes and additions across the years. Jessica sent me a preview and I found myself drawn to some Hebrew words I'd never seen, three different words flattened into "sin" in modern translations. I'll likely circle back to all three but for now I want to point toward the Bible Project Iniquity page a
nd pause on the explanation of one Hebrew word for sin.

The word avon is related to a Hebrew verb avah, which means “to be bent” or “crooked.” The poet of Psalm says his back is avah'd, that is, bent over in pain. A road that isn't straight is one that avah's, that is, it's twisty and crooked. 
It occurred to me reading this description: if "avon" refers to all kinds of crooked behavior, it refers to gerrymandering. Crooked lines. Distorted representation. 

Another fascinating thing about the word avon is that it refers not only to distorted behavior but also to the crooked consequences––the hurt people, the broken relationships, the cycles of retaliation.

Elbridge Gerry was not the first to bend district lines to benefit his own party. And not the worst by any means. Two years past the last redistricting deadlines, multiple states are still in litigation over distorted district lines as both major parties vie for control of Congress and voters struggle for fair representation. 

Distorted districts yield distorted policies. The more I learn the more I see that. Distorted districts also deepen the partisan divide, and fuel "us vs them" cycles of retaliation. 

Crooked actions and distorted ideas ripple far past their beginnings to harm all they touch. Lies travel the globe, stirring more lies as they go. Hate begets more hate, with tragic consequences. The disturbances of sin shape our personal lives, but also our politics and policies, twisting and troubling everything they touch. 

I started this blog in 2010 in part to keep myself thinking about questions that came up with young friends during my years in youth ministry. In part my goal was to dig into words that have been flattened by misuse or mis-translation. And in part, I wanted to continue conversation, across space and time, about what it means to live as followers of Christ in ways that might not always fit with the distorted words we've been given.

As I move into Ash Wednesday, and Lent, I'll be thinking about the crookedness I carry, the crookedness I've been freed from, and the crookedness in the world around us we're called to wrestle with. 


Some earlier Ash Wednesday posts: 

Sunday, January 28, 2024

Welcome the Stranger

In 2008 my husband, younger daughter and I visited our son Matthew in the northern reaches of Guatemala. He was serving his second year with the Peace Corps in a region ravaged by civil war, drug trafficking, erosion and mud slides. His primary missions were to help replant treacherous slopes and explore possible tourist income tracking birds endemic to that region or leading hikes up Guatemala's highest slopes. 

While we were there, members of his community joined in serving a feast of welcome: multiple chickens cooked over an open fire, dozens of tortillas made from corn ground just that morning. My daughter and I practiced our very-limited Spanish while we learned to flatten balls of tortilla dough. Matthew and Whitney (my husband) joined others to position tables, gather chairs from nearby homes and keep the fires going. 

Over the extended midday meal there were multiple speeches, all translated by our son. Speeches about how happy the village was to have him. Speeches about the honor to host a family like ours, the first gringo family to visit the town in recent memory. 

But the speech I remember most was from Matthew's landlord, a respected farmer and community leader He expressed his welcome, as he had in other ways in the days before, but then the speech took a different turn. He noted that he, and others of the town, had spent time in the United States. Sometimes as seasonal guest workers, harvesting crops. Sometimes for longer periods, digging ditches, laboring in construction. 

"No one ever invited us to dinner, No one made us a meal. No one made us feel welcome."
Matthew, a gifted translator, matched the energy and expression of his host. The
local listeners were quiet and watchful as the words were said in Spanish, then in English. We nodded, sadly. What else could we do? And the event continued, with more food, more talk, but a note of sadness sitting at the core. 

I was reminded then, as I am now, of the words of Jesus in Matthew 25:

When the Son of Man comes in his glory with all his angels, he will sit on his royal throne. The people of all nations will be brought before him, and he will separate them, as shepherds separate their sheep from their goats. He will place the sheep on his right and the goats on his left. Then the king will say to those on his right, “My father has blessed you! Come and receive the kingdom that was prepared for you before the world was created. When I was hungry, you gave me something to eat, and when I was thirsty, you gave me something to drink. When I was a stranger, you welcomed me, and when I was naked, you gave me clothes to wear. When I was sick, you took care of me, and when I was in jail, you visited me.”

Then the ones who pleased the Lord will ask, “When did we give you something to eat or drink? When did we welcome you as a stranger or give you clothes to wear or visit you while you were sick or in jail?”

The king will answer, “Whenever you did it for any of my people, no matter how unimportant they seemed, you did it for me.”

Then the king will say to those on his left, “Get away from me! You are under God's curse. Go into the everlasting fire prepared for the devil and his angels! I was hungry, but you did not give me anything to eat, and I was thirsty, but you did not give me anything to drink. I was a stranger, but you did not welcome me, and I was naked, but you did not give me any clothes to wear. I was sick and in jail, but you did not take care of me.”

Then the people will ask, “Lord, when did we fail to help you when you were hungry or thirsty or a stranger or naked or sick or in jail?”

The king will say to them, “Whenever you failed to help any of my people, no matter how unimportant they seemed, you failed to do it for me.”

Then Jesus said, “Those people will be punished forever. But the ones who pleased God will have eternal life.”

I'm not sure that passage should be taken as proof-text for everlasting fire or other spiritual realities, although that's often how it's read. Instead, I think it should be taken as a clear statement by Jesus that his followers can be known by the way they welcome strangers. All strangers. Hungry, naked, thirsty strangers. Sick, imprisoned strangers. That's how we show our love for Jesus himself, the God who himself was hungry, naked, thirsty, and imprisoned. 

I'm thankful that I've always been part of churches where immigrants are welcome. My understanding of the Christian faith has been shaped by people from other continents. 

The first church Whitney and I joined in our early marriage befriended a network of Hmong refugees, recently arrived from the hill country of Laos and Northern Vietnam. They were part of a wave of asylum seekers who had worked with the US during the Vietnam War. The Refugee Act of 1980signed by President Jimmy Carter on March 17, 1980, finally allowed families to join the Hmong spies who had escaped as Vietnam fell. Some of those families joined our church in Philadelphia and were an active part of our church life until most relocated to Wisconsin and Minnesota. 

During those same years another refugee landed in our church. His name was Hudson. He had escaped the bloody slaughter led by Idi Amin, the Ugandan dictator responsible for the death of over 300,000 of his countrymen. Hudson's family had been killed, but somehow as a teenager he found his way across borders to Philadelphia. We got to know him over Sunday lunches I helped organize every week in the church fellowship hall. When he heard I had a plot at a coop garden blocks from our church, he asked if he could help me dig and plant, and eventually joined us at our home to enjoy dinners made from the harvest. 

Hudson and our Hmong friends were about the same age as Whitney and me, young adults in our early twenties. Yet how different our journeys. They chose not to talk of the refugee camps where they'd been held, the dangerous border crossings. They didn't share the painful stories of war and death and loss. Instead, they asked for help on practical things: how to find jobs, apartments, medical care, fabric, tools, special foods. 

A decade later I did hear stories from other refugee friends:

Tran, whose daughter was in my Brownie troop, became trained to help lead our Brownie campouts. When the girls were asleep in their tents, she and I sat by the campfire, where she told me stories of life in Vietnam during the war. She was in Saigon the day it fell, then spent years in a refugee camp. She was a practical, matter-of-fact person, but sometimes she would pause in her stories, as if the memories overwhelmed her. As if there was still so much sadness and terror she would need decades more to find courage to tell the full story. 

Another mom was from an undisclosed Arab country. Her family had fled under a regime change and established a business in a neighboring country. There, their windows were broken and storefront ransacked because of ethnic prejudice, so they fled again. And again. Her young family had been in refugee camps in several countries before somehow gaining status to relocate to the US. Her daughters were now in school consistently for the first time. They were all finally beginning to feel safe. She was grateful. Grateful that they were welcome. Grateful that my daughter would be friends with hers. Grateful that I would invite her for coffee, and visit her home in return. 

There have been times in US history when immigration laws worked well, when refugees had a clear path toward legal status, and when most Americans understood the economic and social benefits of welcome and inclusion. 

There have also been ugly times of prejudice, anger and violence toward newcomers, and seasons when our immigration laws defied common sense, our own economic well-being and the international rule of law. 

We are in one of those seasons now. Immigration reforms have been blocked for years, caught in partisan accusation. Meanwhile, a steady stream of refugees is turned away in defiance of scripture and international law. 

The heartache for me is how many celebrating razor wire on the Texas border and blocking constructive immigration reform are people who claim to follow Jesus. 

Of course nations have a right to secure borders. Of course the US can't be the final destination of every troubled person around the troubled globe. 

That's where the arguments immediately go. 

I'd suggest we start elsewhere: with Jesus' comments in Matthew 25.

And with an informed understanding of what the issues are, who is blocking solutions and a refusal to be exploited by fear or prejudice. 

For anyone who wants to do as Jesus asks us, some starting places:



Some earlier posts on immigration: