All this is permanent. It is done and cannot and will not and will never be undone. And while I am all for good politics, which is to say I am all for a good future, and so I am all for doing better by the refugees that yet live, I also refuse to let the past go as if it were merely the gravel under the sub-foundation of whatever shiny tomorrow we happen to build next.There is no politics that can redeem what time has irretrievably taken. To stand as witness to the past is to stand either in utter nihilism and despair, or in the desperate, desperate hope that in the end a Redeemer will walk upon the earth, who will bring forth those whose flesh was destroyed, to see and be loved forever by God.
Sunday, November 29, 2020
Advent One: We Will Feast
Sunday, November 22, 2020
Grief, Grievance, Gratitude, Grace
All of us.
A lot.
Far too many of us lost friends and family members. Almost 2,000 a day now. A 9-11 level tragedy every 36 hours.
Some have lost health with debilitating long haul symptoms.
Some have lost jobs, businesses, savings.
But even for us who have somehow escaped the more catastrophic loses, there are losses of trust, of friendship, of community, of plans and hopes and normalcy.
There is no hoped for new normal. What worked for a few weeks, a few months, has shifted again as weather turns cold and Covid cases rise.
National health experts urge us NOT to gather for Thanksgiving. Dr. Fauci urges "Hunker down."
I've been wondering how to stay grateful when our hearts are full of grief.
Grief is not a new theme for me. According to Gregory of Nyssa (c. 335 –395): "It is impossible for one to live without tears who considers things exactly as they are."
Looking back over my own posts about grief and lament, I came across a post I wrote in the wake of the 2012 election where I explored the movement from grief, to grievance, to gratitude:
A friend gave me Ann Voskamp's One Thousand Gifts: A Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are, and I"ve been struck by how Voskamp's determination to be thankful led her from deep depression into a life of joy, and how gratitude gradually undid the damage of a childhood locked in silent grief,
I've experienced much of this myself. I grew up in a household beset with grievance. "If only" was a frequent refrain. I watched how "if only" can blossom into bitterness and resentment, rage, hatred, violence.
Grievance feed grievance, until every incident, every word, is part of a narrative of injustice and deprivation.
I've seen the same story play out in households I've been close to. Abandonment, resentment, jealousy, rage: once the dial is set to grievance, the story plays out toward a predictably disturbing end.
On a larger stage the story is the same. The language of this past week, for those expecting a different end to our national election, is full of blame, bitterness, anger, hints of retribution.
Is gratitude possible when the default mode is grievance? Is it possible to learn gratitude as a spiritual discipline that can reshape our hearts and open the way to emotional health?
Ir seems the first step toward gratitude is to let go: let go of our own ideas of how the story was to go, let go of the "if onlys," the sense of blame, the certainty that our way would have been best, that we've been denied the only happy ending.
That was written eight years ago. We are in that place again, only worse, recovering from a divisive election with half the nation furious at the outcome, the other half grieving the past four years, the endless litigation, the cries of fraud. All of us are nursing grievance and the sad sense of "if only."
All while struggling with a global pandemic and divided leadership about the best way forward.
Yet grievance will never lead us out of grief. The first step out is to let grievance go.
But there are still things to give thanks for.
Homes. Friends. Sunsets.
Voskamp found that keeping a notebook of “gifts” forced her to pay attention, to see things she would not have seen. “I am a hunter of beauty and I move slow and I keep eyes wide."
In this strange season find myself trying harder to pay attention, to hunt beauty, to store up bright memories for the long winter nights ahead.
I study faces around the bonfire in my daughter's back yard, knowing I'll see those sweet faces less often once winter cold sets in.
Now that in-person encounters are far fewer, I find myself watching for grace bubbling up unexpected ways: merry eyes over a bright mask in a grocery store aisle. A swirl of cedar waxwings high in a neighbor's tree. An ancient song reset with cello and mellow mix of voices, echoes of grace over continents and centuries.
A recent interaction with a young family member reminded me that if we think this moment is all there is, the grief of the moment grows large and grievance seems the right response. If this is it, this day, this season, this life here, now, then it makes total sense to rant and rage or bury ourselves in sorrow.
But gratitude reminds us: this world is much bigger. This life is much larger. This is a page in a ongoing story, a story that starts in love and ends in love, wrapped in grace from start to end, despite the moments of sadness.
So, hunker down! Stay safe.
Practice gratitude.
Listen for the songs of grace echoing around you.
Sunday, November 15, 2020
What We Share
I've been hearing a LOT about socialists.
In fact, I know people who voted solely out of fear of dangerous socialists who would destroy our country and make it just like Venezuela.
I'm a bit baffled at the reference to Venezuela.
And also baffled at the socialist accusations against obvious capitalists like Joe Biden and Kamala Harris.
Socialism is one of those words that shifts and morphs, depending on who uses it and why.
Here's one generally accepted definition: "a political and economic theory of social organization which advocates that the means of production, distribution, and exchange should be owned or regulated by the community as a whole."
By that definition, there are very few genuinely socialist nations. Cuba, China, Laos, Vietnam, and even those don't qualify as pure socialist nations. There are other countries with varying aspects of socialism along a continuum of cooperative production. Some mention socialism in their constitutions, some don't. Some have majority parties that identify themselves as socialist: Democratic Socialist, Christian Socialist, Labor parties, Green parties, Working Family Party.
They all seem to mean different things.
What does Venezuela have to do with it?
It's both sad and amusing to hear people say "you don't want that to happen to us!"
What is the "THAT"?
I've asked but am still not sure of the reply. Venezuela's is a familiar story about capitalism run amuck, over-dependence on extractive industry, various forms of corruption. It has little to tell us about socialism and almost no bearing on US politics. If that's really of interest, you can find a summary here.
More interesting to me is how we think about what we share.
Pennsylvania is a commonwealth, formed with reference to the ideals of government by the people for the common good. Penn's woods were blessed with more miles of streams and rivers than any other region in the country, all held in common, all used for the common good. Fueled by those waterways and abundant coal and timber, Pennsylvania became the greatest manufacturing state in the nation and held that title well into the 20th century.
Is it socialism to hold means of production and distribution in common? If so, PA was socialist from the start, with everyone dependent on those flowing waterways that fueled forges and mills, carried timber and food downstream and aided travel to central parts of the state.
We still share those waterways, kayaking, fishing, generating energy.
There are many other things we share. I'm thankful for many:
The US Postal Service.
Public libraries.
Public schools.
Public high schools were decried as a socialist endeavor when the idea spread in the early 1900s. In some sectors of conservative evangelicalism, that accusation resurfaced in the 1980s: public schools are apparently hotbeds of socialism.
I haven't seen that myself in my years of active volunteering in local schools, but I've been told by friends who would never enter a public school that they're godless places spewing socialism. Personally, I'm thankful for the great teachers my kids had in public school, thankful for my own public school education, thankful for dedicated teachers struggling now to educate safely in this strange pandemic time.
Would it be socialism to carry public education through the next level? Many countries have taken that step, arguing that a well-educated public is essential to good governance and economic stability. Since PA now spends more on incarceration than higher education, I think we'd be well-served to make college possible for kids from poor communities with no avenue out. Does that make me a socialist? I'll take the risk.
What else we share:
Roads.
Bridges.
Public parks.
The US was the first country to officially set aside wide tracts of land for public use. In some countries, communal lands have been used for hunting, gathering firewood. Capitalism in some places has decimated those public lands, allowing clearcutting of forests and criminalizing historic land use. Efforts to save public lands have often been led by socialist parties, insisting that common land be retained.
So -are Pennsylvania's vast tracts of state forest evidence of socialism?
If so, are our hunters and fishermen socialists?
I think about this when I kayak on Marsh Creek Lake. I love that that nearby, free-to-use state park is enjoyed by young and old, fishermen, boaters, picnicking families, a wonderful medley of languages exclaiming together over sunsets and bald eagles circling overhead.
Park users rarely worry about socialism. The socialism accusation seems most often triggered around the question of health care. As if there's something in scripture that ties health care to employment. As if a large percentage of US citizens don't already enjoy state-funded care.
National health insurance for all was first proposed by Teddy Roosevelt when he ran for president in 1912. Harry Truman fought for the idea throughout his presidency, arguing:
Healthy citizens constitute our greatest natural resource, and prudence as well as justice demands that we husband that resource. … as a nation we should not reserve good health and long productive life for the well-to-do, only, but should strive to make good health equally available to all citizens.The American Medical Association fought back, accusing Truman of socialism. In the first major advertising campaign of its kind, the AMA convinced the public that health insurance for all would destroy our freedom and lead us into communism.
Dwight Eisenhower ran in opposition to "socialized medicine," but also worried “Too many of our people live too far from adequate medical aid; too many of our people find the cost of adequate medical care too heavy.” His proposed solution was a form of subsidized insurance, very much like the current Affordable Care Act.
It would take a book to give the full history of the issue, but interesting to read the back and forth of accusations, propaganda, scrapped ideas, campaign rhetoric.
In 1965 Lyndon Johnson signed Medicare into law for Americans 65 and older, despite warnings that it opened the door to dangerous loss of freedoms. Ronald Reagan was widely quoted in his opposition to the program:
behind it will come other government programs that will invade every area of freedom as we have known it in this country until one day . . . we will wake to find that we have socialism.
I'll be 65 next month and looking forward to signing up for federally funded health care. I have many friends and relatives who reached that magic age with relief. I haven't seen them losing their freedoms. I'm not sure they'd call themselves socialists.
And I know many younger workers tied to jobs they'd like to leave because they fear the loss of heath care. I know many who fear loss of coverage of pre-existing conditions. I've seen the bind of friends struggling with mental illness, afraid to lose their jobs because they'd also lose their coverage. I've seen families lose loved ones who couldn't afford medical care and I've seen families lose their homes because the care they chose was more costly than they knew.
Most other nations provide universal health care for a fraction of the cost of our current multi-layered strategy. They cut out the middle layer of insurance, remove the frustration of insurance agents deciding what care we need. From every logical point I can see, universal care would be more accessible, less expensive and yield better results.
Loss of freedoms? Tel that to anyone struggling with insurance forms and medical bills while navigating serious illness.
There is no perfect economic structure. No perfect political system. Every human institution can fall prey to thugs, con artists, powerful, greedy people looking out for their own good.
But there will always be things we share.
And whatever the system, scripture is clear that nations, leaders, people themselves are responsible for how they treat each other. Any system that fails to care for widows and orphans, for strangers and workers, for the sick and oppressed will be held to account. The prophets make that emphatically clear.
Jesus said the same when he talked of separating sheep from goats, not on the basis of theology or belief, but simply on the basis of care for the hungry, the naked, the sick and in prison.
There are books suggesting Jesus was a socialist.
There are others insisting he wasn't.
I stumbled today on a challenging essay in response to one of those books: Was Jesus a Socialist? by Lawrence Reed, president of the Foundation for Economic Education, a libertarian think tank.
Reviewer Dan Walden responds: "Was Jesus a Socialist? Well, he wasn't a libertarian," then goes on to explain that our modern understanding of individualism and property rights would have made no sense in Biblical times.
Jesus is not a modern person, and it is not immediately clear why it matters whether he subscribed to a modern political ideology.Walden explores and dismantles Reed's arguments, then concludes:
The response of Christians to the contemporary social order must necessarily look very different from our responses to previous ones: it must account for the particular evils of the present order and for our social capacity to rectify them.
Jesus was not a socialist. But socialists, I think, understand something about Jesus that libertarians, even Christian ones like Lawrence Reed, do not: that the world at which we aim, the kingdom whose coming Christ proclaimed, will not settle our debts and contracts but abolish them completely.
Our struggle is not to raise ourselves above our enemies, but to love them fully, because to abolish class means abolishing what makes them our enemies at all. This is a hard task, demanding of us a revolutionary discipline that puts the most hardened Leninist to shame; it is always easier to entertain fantasies of violent retribution in which those who oppressed us finally face the other end of the gun or the other side of a prison bar. But the world that we want to build, the society of love, calls us beyond these impulses. It demands that even rapacious billionaires not be sent to prison. It demands that the children of those billionaires go to good schools for free. It shames those impulses, which we often see as a desire for justice, because it shows us that justice demands not the reversal of exploitation but its end.
There's much to consider in that. And much to pray toward: a day when both capitalism and socialism are at an end, along with all forms of exploitation, and all forms of human need.
Until that day comes, my goal is to stand clear of labels that divide and distort, to serve my neighbors with love, not fear, and to enjoy as fully as I can all the good things we share.
Sunset over Marsh Creek Lake |
Sunday, November 8, 2020
Joy to the Polls
On Tuesday morning, November 3, I woke with a sense of dread.
I was grieving the divisiveness and misinformation surrounding the election and campaigns. I was concerned at the hints of violence that surfaced in the recent attempt to kidnap Michigan's Governor Whitmer, in the death threats against Dr. Fauci and his family, in social media posts urging physical removal of our Pennsylvania governor, Tom Wolf.
I was aware of the tinder keg of grief and anger simmering in Philadelphia after the tragic death of Walter Wallace, Jr. I feared that long lines in urban neighborhoods, confronted by Trump supporters carrying guns, could easily explode.
I had decided to fast and pray on Monday and Tuesday, hoping occasional pangs of hunger would remind me to continue in prayer.
As I prayed on Tuesday morning, I found myself praying for joy, a strange thing to pray on election morning when I was working so hard to manage anxiety and dread.
I often write my prayers in composition book journals. On "Nov. 3, 2020, Tuesday, Election Day!" I wrote:
Lord, today, give us your joy.I had signed up for a shift with the Election Protection coalition, monitoring social media for disinformation, reporting attempts to suppress the vote and sharing positive posts with factual responses. While I saw much that concerned me, I also found myself encountering posts in Philadelphia that surprised and delighted me.
Help us be strong in the Lord and in your mighty strength, for we wrestle not with flesh and blood, but with the spirit of deception, division, rage, power.
Open the eyes of our people.
Give wisdom, grace, joy, compassion.
Sing your song of grace to our hearts.
Eternal God, give our hearts your joy this day.
The first I saw was from days before at an early voting center somewhere in Philly. Comments acknowledged that lines shouldn't be so long, but the right to vote is worth waiting for. Democracy is worth celebrating. Hashtag: JoytothePolls
As I worked my election day 9 to noon shift, I saw more #JoytothePolls posts, with string quartets, gospel choirs, rappers, a harpist, klezmer bands serenading voters or inviting them to dance in their long socially-distanced lines.
Videos surfaced of impromptu dancing or rapping, of a 92 year old woman dancing her way to vote.
When I dug in a little, I learned that Joy to the Polls was a recent idea of artists and organizers, loosely associated with a non-partisan coalition called Election Defenders. All were concerned that anxieties around long lines, exposure to Covid-19, threats of armed militias, simmering racial tension could discourage voters. All wanted to encourage citizens who hadn't voted by mail to come cast their vote despite very real concerns.
Our approach is to try and focus on the positive, to ask ourselves, how can we be as positive as possible within a really scary situation? We wanted to figure out a way so while people are outside of the polling station, we can bring them a feeling of safety and a feeling of joy.
Despite the repeated requests, legislative leaders chose not to pass the needed change. A Reuters Special Report on October 23 warned that the Pennsylvania vote count could throw the country into "historical political crisis."
Tensions were high on Wednesday as Trump supporters arrived outside the Philadelphia convention center where hundreds of thousands of ballots were being counted.
The election drama is still not over. President Trump has not yet conceded. While some lawsuits have already been dismissed, more litigation is brewing. Allegations of fraud will continue to circulate, although no evidence has surfaced. There are still rumblings of violence and plenty of need for prayer for a smooth transfer of power. And the white evangelical church has much work to do to in unraveling the tangled webs of righteous and unrighteous allegiance.
For me, this week, I caught a tiny slice of some things I hadn't seen before, or maybe had seen but not understood, or maybe knew but had forgotten:
- Joy has far more power than anger.
- Love is far more convincing than reason.
- God is at work outside our narrow constructs.
- The American church is far larger than white evangelicalism.
Sunday, November 1, 2020
Peacemakers, not Peacekeepers
We live in a time of great conflict, division, unrest and sorrow. Even simple interactions are occasions of disagreement and negotiation: can we worship inside? With or without masks? With or without singing? Can we put a yard sign in our yards? Will the neighbors steal it, spray paint it, target us and our homes?
We Will Make No Peace with Oppression |
Lord, make me an instrument of peace,
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
Where there is darkness, let me sow light . . .
We will make no peace with oppressionMy inner tension between those songs exploded this week at the news of the death of Walter Wallace, Jr. Just blocks from where I once lived in West Philadelphia, a mother called 911 asking for help with a son suffering from bipolar disorder. Police showed up in force and within minutes her son was dead, shot ten times as the distraught mother pleaded for non-violent intervention.
We won’t turn away from our brothers, cries of our sisters, grieving of our mothers.
We won’t turn away from destructive politicians, overflowing prisons, corruption in our systems. Almighty God, help us not to be afraid.
Almighty God, give us Your Strength.
He’s a large, loving guy who is scary when manic. He would likely have been dead years ago if he was black instead of white.
Sam and Beca Lufi were part of our Urban Serve team in the last years I served as a full-time youth pastor and now live in Kensington, looking for ways to serve that beleaguered community. Sam’s email this week put my tension into perspective. With his permission I’m sharing part of that here:
The protests and violence in response to police killing Walter Wallace, Jr are not a knee-jerk reaction to a single incident but to centuries of frustration, pain, and hopelessness caused by explicit policies of injustice, racism, and economic oppression. . . .
When protests have moved out of national visibility, have we continued to work on the issues - to create sustainable jobs, provide better access to education, strengthen mental health support and addiction treatment, and house those on the streets? In general, the answer has been "no." The plights of our marginalized brothers and sisters only matter to us when they disrupt our comfort.
This recognition, this perspective is new for me but is not new for our country. The perpetuation of two distinct America's - one with more than enough and one with barely enough - has been identified and named long before we began our humble mission to Philadelphia. Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. tried to call our collective attention to this reality decades ago, but we have refused to hear or learn.
But it is not enough for me to stand before you tonight and condemn riots. It would be morally irresponsible for me to do that without, at the same time, condemning the contingent, intolerable conditions that exist in our society. These conditions are the things that cause individuals to feel that they have no other alternative than to engage in violent rebellions to get attention. And I must say tonight that a riot is the language of the unheard. And what is it America has failed to hear? It has failed to hear that the plight of the negro poor has worsened over the last twelve or fifteen years. It has failed to hear that the promises of freedom and justice have not been met. And it has failed to hear that large segments of white society are more concerned about tranquility and the status quo than about justice and humanity.Jesus was never concerned with tranquility and the status quo at the expense of the marginalized and oppressed. He stood up for those who were caught doing wrong, for those who were ethnically and economically marginalized, those whose health issues placed them outside the bounds of society. He opposed those who had religious and political influence and used it to keep people homeless while expecting them to continue religious giving.
From my perspective in Philadelphia, the situation is complex. I grieve humans created in God's image being injured - whether protestors or police. I am concerned about the loss of life - whether protestor or police. I also grieve a reality that has existed for centuries: White Americans have ignored the very real suffering of our Black brother and sisters. Rather than trying to understand why they vote differently from us or structure their church outreach differently, we have been content to critique their theology without examining our own. We have blamed laziness and fatherlessness without being willing to critique our own greed and complacency.
Peacekeeping is not the same thing as peace-making.
Peacekeepers will stand on the side of law and order every time.
Peacemakers understand that real peace is impossible until evil is addressed and oppression is ended.
What will that look like this week, as a contentious election unfolds and we face the damage done in this bitter election season?
It will look different for each of us, but this prayer, the basis of that challenging Porter’s Gate song, is a good place to begin:
Almighty God, who created us in your own image: Grant us grace fearlessly to contend against evil and to make no peace with oppression; and, that we may reverently use our freedom, help us to employ it in the maintenance of justice in our communities and among the nations, to the glory of your holy Name; through Jesus Christ our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen. (Book of Common Prayer, 1979)